So, after Subhash's visit to my bus, I also started taking part in the 'staring sessions' with equal interest,and very soon it became a regular routine for us to stare at each other once in the canteen and that too for a very very short time (though I was not liking this short period...but Subhash seemed to control his feelings) .My commitment level towards him increased when I came to know that his full name was Subhash Chandra.Yes, the name of the original hero of my life was also Subhash Chandra.The day I came to know about this, I was really surprised and shocked by the coincident.I became very disturbed by all the things.Now my heart, my brain everything was captured by him only....but my soul was constantly telling me that I should not go after such momentry  pleasures...and more over he was not the original one.Once or twice I tried to come out of all these things....but was not successful....as there was so much resemblance.

One thing, I really liked about this duplicate Subhash was his simplicity and down to earth attitude.In this way, he was resembling more to the 'simplified version' of the original Subhash.
To know the simplified version of 'original Subhash' I must tell you about him.

So, now the story goes back to the time when I was just 7  years old and living at my home town in a rented house.One night ,I wake up due to some disturbances and I saw a truck downloading near my home.I asked my mother about all this.She told me that the house owner family had come to live next to our house as that portion also belonged to them.I was happy as the portion was vacant for the past one moth.Slowly, I got acquainted with the family members of my house owner .He had 3 sons and one daughter.One of his sons used to visit our house frequently as very soon he became friend with my cousin who was also living with us.Both were of the same age group.He used to talk with me also.He always talked to me in a very very sweet manner.I liked this very much.At that time he was preparing for engineering entrance exams and used to study a lot.But, he had a peculiar habit.He used to study while keeping his radio on and he could not study if somebody would put off his radio.To tease him, I used to put off his radio often, but he would silently move the knob and used to put it on and this off and on sessions would go on for 5-10 minutes and during the on-off sessions, he never used to get irritated, he never scolded me, he never said anything to me....somehow this thing touched my heart, it touched my soul...though I was just a child....but a child also recognises  love.On my 8th birthday, he said that he wanted to give me a gift that I would never forget for the rest of  my life(but He never gave that gift..I am still waiting).
Yaar, good things in life last for very short time.He got selected in a very prestigious engineering collage and went out of the city.After six months,he came back during his semester break.He was totally changed.Earlier he was a very simple, down to earth person,but now he became very stylish,all his simplicity was gone and was overtaken by self-confidence and a bit of arrogance.Now,he was speaking in English only and no Hindi.I could not digest his metamorphosis.One thing still remained unchanged and it was his nature towards me, it was still the same manner filled with love and sweetness.
After 3 or 4 days, he went back.Meanwhile we also moved to a new house in a different colony.Now, his visits to our house were restricted to only once or twice in a year.I used to tease him for various things, and He would just laugh.I loved to see him laughing.I loved the style yaar.For the whole year , I would wait for his next visit.I could not realise that I had fallen in love with him as I was too young or I think that the beauty of true love is that you don't realise that you have fallen in love, all your actions come from your heart and they are very natural.
One thing was still there, I used to miss his simplified version as I fell in love with his simplicity, down to earth attitude and used to search for these qualities in his updated version.

I realised that I have fallen in love when I was in 11th class, and  at  that time I realise one thing more that our love was not practical as there was 11 years of age difference between us and I would never get him.I was sure that he also loved me, though we never said anything to each other , but all was understood.Yet ,I used to plan sometimes that once I would get a seat in a medical collage, I would definitely propose him.All my plans were shattered when our family got an invitation card of his marriage.   

                             (NEXT PART WILL FOLLOW SOON)